Hidden God Hiding Love

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Hidden God Hiding Love

By Jane Tawel

August 29, 2021

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God hides.

All truth speakers know this.

All truth seekers show this,

in The Way they treat others.

We don’t know why God hides,

but it must have something to do,

with us, not God.

After all, a God who hides must love us very much.

For who can see God and live?

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Love is not particularly our human forté.

And the kind of loves we mistake for Love,

perhaps the one that hovers and smothers,

in a needy insecure desire;

or love in a parent’s or lover’s missional bait and switch;

or love that demands returns on love’s investments

until a better investment comes around;

or love that claims to sacrifice,

while in reality,

it only takes and takes love unto one’s self,

 in the name of charity for others;

these things we all accept as if we know their meaning.

But the still small voice within us, always cries: “Lack! Lack!”

These false loves we accept and make stories about,

and award and honor those we think did it selflessly,

and so, we spin and protect the tall tales of selfless Eros;

and miss the truth myths of Agape love.

And we die false sacrifices in the name of love,

never having lived in the sacrifice of God’s Love.

Or we love others, with only their false names on our lips

because for most of us we think that kind of love is the best we can do,

and because the names we have given them are the only names we know.

We have not yet repented of our love,

and confessed that our hearts are still mostly made of stone.

We have not stopped to listen to the hidden song within,

the others or ourselves,

and stopped-up the noise of love-songs,

and stripped away the names of our families or feudal tribes.

We fear without our names,

the only names we know,

we will not know who we are.

But that is only because we have not yet received our white stones.

But we put far too much faith in knowing who we are;

“Be still. Stop your stories. And Know God, I Am. you are.”

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Oh, put aside your childish things, and fairy tales.

There is no white knight riding forth to save you.

You have salvation within yourself.

Arise from your deathbed and live.

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Selfless love is a cancerous myth,

full of false gods and false loves,

spreading through our lives like locusts in fields of grain.

Make your story about loving yourself.

God loves Himself;

and love is of God and everyone who truly loves,

is born out of God.

Make your story about loving everyone.

God loves everyone;

and this hard love, like a hidden diamond,

 is hidden even from God Himself,

so that all may be loved.

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God’s Love is hidden,

Like all treasure chests are.

God’s love lies hidden within my very chest walls.

And if I can not sense its Presence

in myself, I will never sense it

in my brother, mother, sister, friend, child and

Yes, even hidden, like a lost coin, in my enemy.

If my Truth is not seeking

The Hidden God in me, and

God’s Love hidden in you,

then all truth is a lie

and all loves are hates.

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Just because the God in me

lies buried

under the eons of fallen, rotten fruit

from Eden’s deserted crop,

the pearl of great price is also buried there;

gifted, not earned; found, not banked on;

apart from all I have nurtured or harvested;

a part and piece of all that is

my solitary humanness, my island, myself,

 alive and a-love within the Divine Whole.

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And just because the God in

you, or me, or them, or us

may be hidden under layers,

and layers of the dusts-bowls of fruitlessness,

of the arid wastelands of anger and fear,

of the decimating wars without and within

or the shackles placed on us by the concepts of slavery or sin;

just because we feel alone

or alone,

or sometimes we are so very all alone;

just because we can’t see clearly,

and all is muddled in minds gone rancid from the infections of information,

and our hearts hurt so bad from longing for love,

and our eyes sting from trying to see through,

the crusted over with dirty things

cracked mirrors of our souls;

and the world has been unformed and fomented

by our own lusts and dirtied hands;

none of that means anything

 if The God Who formed the Universe,

who formed us each in the World’s Womb,

is still playing peek-a-boo,

with us Her children,

and when we are afraid in this world of hide-and-seek,

that we will never find God,

She is reaching out Her Hands,

and God suddenly appears

to hold us in Her Love.

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In the world of false loves,

We grope blindly and fall, and fall, and fall.

But that doesn’t mean that now and then,

if we keep our eyes open,

and keep stepping out with faith,

and keep our lamps filled with oil,

every now and then, and eventually with practice,

and giving up, and with, (I am afraid to say it) a lot of dying to that which is dead;

every now and then,

the Living Hidden will peek-out and peer

 through the most unremarkable people,

unremarkable people like myself;

and beauty will appear in the most undesirable things and places;

and Love will be like nothing we could ever imagine happening in ourselves.

And by finding the hidden and divine Love within ourselves,

we will find God.

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This Way is the only Way.

And This Story is the only Story.

And This Love is the only True Love.

When I love only and completely

the God in you,

and when I love the God in me,

then we who still seek,

will see God.

And we will live.

© Jane Tawel,  August 2021

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Jane Tawel

Still not old enough to know better. I root around and explore ideas in philosophy, spirituality, poetry, Judeo-Christian Worldview, family, relationships, and art. Often torn between encouragement & self-directed chastisement, I may sputter, but I still keep trying to move forward.

8 thoughts on “Hidden God Hiding Love”

    1. Thank you. I think from what I have read of yours, that you come much closer to an understanding / acceptance that God enjoys being playful with us. I have a hard time getting past my image of God as judge and prosecutor, and while “the fear of God is the beginning of wisdom”, there has to be a growth to see God the Father in the way Christ did — as the One who comes running towards us with joy, abandonment, loving acceptance — the God who was “hiding” and waiting for us to “get some skin back in the game”, not leave Him to Himself. Anyway, thank you for your kindness in reading and commenting. May your journey today bring you joy, wherever it leads, Jane

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      1. You’re welcome, Jane. It’s taken me years to see HIM in all ways I desire from a Father. I grew up in fear of him. My grandfather’s preaching literally scared the hell straight out of me. I only knew the judging God. I lived half my life in guilt thinking how could I POSSIBLY deserve such unwarranted love, acceptance, and joy! I learned that obedience does not provide salvation. It’s free for me to accept and with that, the Holy Spirit can help guide me to be obedient to my promise to him. Not in my good works or the gavel I hit over my head. I’m headed to Alaska in an hour to meet my new granddaughter! Peace and blessings dear Friend!

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    1. So much of what I am exploring comes from my reading and meditation on the books by Abraham Joshua Heschel and Richard Rohr — both of whom are “rocking” my religious/ spiritual Judeo-Christian worldview. I have realized in my later life that while I am immensely grateful for my upbringing and so many years of teachings and imparted knowledge, I have found myself lacking a truly intimate, reassuring or “actual” knowledge / understanding of Who God is in a real and personal way — I have spent a life time of lip service to my relationship with God and am grateful (mostly, although also frightened and insecure — LOL!) about the current journey I seem to be on in “The Way” of Christ and the seeking of God. I love the use of your word “fascinated”, Donna, because that is exactly I think what God is hoping for each of us — that we will become “fascinated” with Him — may your journey in that fascination today bring you joy and thank you for sharing — Jane

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      1. Jane, I agree, this path of a real, personal God is scary and hard, and forced upon me by death. I am finding surprises along the way.. spirit comforting, peace, trust, and love that fills me and overflows to others (this is so unlike me.) I do often think of time before the Fall, and the daily walks with God. I walk each day and imagine those scenes now. God does walk with me, yet I’d love to have a tangible God by my side… Thank you for your support.

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