Then? When? Now? It’s Just a Matter of Time
By Jane Tawel
March 9, 2023
No one knows what happens.
Don’t believe them when they say they do.
They tell you there’s a Heaven out there
and so, we stop focusing;
our eyes grow bleary with the hopelessness,
of bringing Heaven to earth now.
There can be no fear if we admit
we simply never know enough.
Never enough —
not then, not now, not whenever.
I hope to hope
mostly from now on,
to hope in what I can not know.
Let’s live in hope,
that all who seek might find,
and all might have and be at home,
here and now.
And no one knows the Truth
of what once happened
long ago or yesterday.
Your truth can never be mine,
nor mine yours,
but therein lies peace.
We all have inner-inter-interpretations;
and the impressions left on hearts and minds
run deeper than a chasm of doubt,
run deeper than any one can dig us out of,
run deeper than a mother’s love,
run deeper than a child’s dreams,
run deeper than a hope unborn.
The ruts are deep
and mine are mine to mine
and yours are yours to rest in if you choose.
All of us should stand ready,
above the ruts we’ve worn,
and hold out hands
to lift another up,
or perhaps just to see
if arms are really wings
and we can fly.
I tried to write a final verse
about living in the moment,
but instead I went out to lie in the green field,
and there I played with a blade of grass.
And I thought no more of yesterday.
And I thought no more of tomorrow.
And I thought no more of you or me.
And I thought no more,
but rested there,
and played a little with a blade of grass,
and hummed a small and meaningless tune.
Then? When? Now?
It’s just a matter of Time.
I have so much to un-accomplish,
and so little else to say.
Time is short, contracting in upon itself.
Only what we love will last.
Come be with me,
until our time has passed.
And of yesterday,
we will remember only love.
And as for tomorrow,
we will need know nothing,
And as for now —
Come, let us laugh,
and play with blades of grass.
© Jane Tawel, 2023