Struggling With My Chosen Belief System

by Jane Tawel

October 9, 2020

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Struggling With My Chosen Belief System

by Jane Tawel

October 9, 2020

I am (sadly) curious about what the “Christian” lemmings’ take / excuse is on the latest news that Donald Trump, in order to treat his Covid 19 symptoms, took a drug that is made from aborted fetus cells. Anyone? Anyone ready to look at the definition of hypocrisy, now?

I speak here from what I hope is an evolving, growing Judeo-Christian Worldview and a belief system that reaches out to all forms and belief systems of truth, light, joy, love, and peace. However, every now and then, I simply cannot remain silent when I see so many, at least in my country, America, claiming a type of “Christianity” that I don’t recognize as either Biblical or God-loving. We used to do these things called “testimonies”, in the churches I grew up in. Here is a little one of mine for today.

If I claim a Judeo-Christian worldview, it is not about whom I support, but WHY I support them, for we believe God looks at the heart. And for the one who claims either Judaism or Christianity, there should be only one “WHO” that matters — our Parent/ Creator/ God. My choices about anything and everything are important because of what that says about my walk, my religion, my soul, my God. As Jesus makes tragically clear: “What does it profit me if I gain the world, but lose my soul”? The only WHO that matters is Whom I say Christ is. The only WHO that matters is the God of LOVE of the whole world, the whole planet, the whole of Us, from the least to the (temporarily) greatest.

I will once more recommend a deep dive into the actual words of The Christ that many of us have claimed to follow. Matthew 23 is shockingly bold and convicting for starters. Warning: there is absolutely nothing at all on abortion in Christ’s words or in fact any of God’s, but there is quite a lot on hypocrisy and lies.

As just one little sheep myself, I am trying to follow the right Shepherd, not the wolves in sheep’s clothing. I am trying to take these words to heart from Luke 12:48: “From everyone who has been given much, much will be demanded; and from the one who has been entrusted with much, much more will be asked.” Jesus is very clear that there will not be any politicians or even church leaders to stand beside me on judgement day. He does promise me judgement however, on how I treat others and how I follow “the Truth, the Life, and the Way.”

Sorry to be so preachy, but it just matters so very, very much to me. Not this man, or that man matters one whit in The End; and I matter not all; but it all and all certainly matters about The Son of Man and what some of us do in His name. #nocheapgrace #nocheapSavior

May you today find your own way to Truth, Life, Love, and Joy. May you know the value of your very own soul above all things temporal. May you be bold and brave enough to stand up and be counted among those who would change the world, even just your own little corner of it. May you have the assurance that Good will always win in the end if we truly believe that “faith, hope and love will reign eternally”. And above all, may you know that there is a Spirit-God Who loves you — just little old you.

One Clumsy but Trying Step at a Time, Jane

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Jane Tawel

Still not old enough to know better. I root around and explore ideas in philosophy, spirituality, poetry, Judeo-Christian Worldview, family, relationships, and art. Often torn between encouragement & self-directed chastisement, I may sputter, but I still keep trying to move forward.

11 thoughts on “Struggling With My Chosen Belief System”

  1. Great post Jane, I too struggle with the so called “Christian Churches” and their beliefs . It is almost impossible to say they are Christian. I worship and follow a compassionate and loving God along with Jesus Christ, Virgin Mary. I know I am still checked every day on what I do and how I behave. I believe I am responsible for me and only my actions, words and thoughts. Trump is a law unto himself. I am not an American but these days I am hearing a lot about the USA and their ways of Christianity. I live in Egypt and I refuse to be part of their form of Christianity it again is something I do not recognise. The Truth Jesus taught seems to have become tainted to please the powers that be. I stand with you Jane in Jesus’ truth God’s laws. Bless you well written.

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    1. Puzzles of the Soul, Thank you so much for your insightful and encouraging comments. First — Fun Fact — my husband of 32 years was born in Cairo to two parents who were part of the huge and thriving European community in Egypt at that time. When Nasser came into power, my husband’s parents were forced to flee Egypt due to religious beliefs, much as his mother’s family had to flee Europe before the Holocaust. My own religious background could not be more different, raised in the Bible Belt of America where corn and Sunday Schools flourished equally. I think because so many Americans have had this same experience (white, middle class Americans at least), we don’t understand the forms that persecution can take. In America, the horrific irony is that religious people think that they are being persecuted when they are asked by the nation to care for others and treat others as they would like to be treated. And the sad irony is, that we, like the Pharisees and Saduccees of Christ’s time have become the persecutors and are those who have fallen by the wayside, like seeds who never grow into fruitfulness. Thank you so much for your encouragement in our mutual journey. Though separated by miles, we are one, Jane

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      1. I grew up in Australia and had a similar religious background. Our religious instruction was gentle and Sunday School every Sunday it was well attended. Mostly people were kind and helpful coming from early settlers background needing to work together to survive. There was so much kindness. Though not always perfect.

        Incredible your husband’s family originated from Egypt and had to leave. I well understand it. The mindset has not changed at all, they are very closed minded hypocritical people. I am lucky I have one friend who does not consider himself one of them and is so different. I lived in UK went to school with them, University and work never experienced anything like I do here, so much hatred.

        I am pleased to have joined in parallel journey with you. I enjoy reading your writing it helps me continue here. Nanette


  2. Amen, Jane. Christianity was such a simple concept at the beginning, love God, love your neighbor. Then it became institutionalized and the institution became more important than the message. The institution was to be protected at all costs, no matter the consequences to its followers. May we all follow the message rather than bow to the institution.

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    1. lensdailydiary — how beautifully and truthfully you have expressed this idea. It took me so, so long to begin to understand this wisdom that you share here. I am still working on it. Thank you so much for your “help along the way”. You have so much wisdom in this comment of yours. I am grateful, Jane


  3. Oh boy, where to begin?? We who are pure of heart have known all along that the inclusion of religion into politics was a terrible direction to go in. Anyone uses God and beliefs to back their own agendas based in power and greed is pure filth. Yuck. I stay far removed from these vibrations. We must rise above. Thank you for calling this behavior out my friend 🙏

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    1. Ladysag77: I got a chuckle because that is how I feel almost every day around here lately, “Where to begin?”. You are so very right. My husband and children get peeved with me when I “suffer” so about trying to “help” people or “change” people. And they are right, usually one can not change someone who doesn’t want to change or see truth about themselves or any one else. And yet, there are times, as I wrote here, that one must speak because to remain silent means I will not be changed in the way I want to be changed. I know you know this because I have read your posts about change and about the hard places when we must communicate tough things with others in order to be freed and “rise above” ourselves. I have never really wanted to engage in political issues but when people keep bringing as you say “filth” into the “sanctuaries” then we have to try our best. I also think that we white, rather privileged Americans have too long not really thought through the real world-wide American politics of exceptionalism and greed and bully -tactics masquerading as spreading democracy etc. It has been a long four years of my educating myself on the realities and wanting to be a part of something different. I know when this season is over, whatever the outcome, I too will desperately seek somewhere and someway to “head to the mountaintop” and rise above. I am glad you are already there, sending good vibrations to me and to others, Jane

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      1. My pleasure my enlightened friend ❤ we grow together in light and love. We see through the hatred and deception of those that are weak. We know that in order to rise, it must be honorable, l9ving and true. What we are witnessing now on the political stage is the opposite of this. Democracy will be restored eventually. First, this system must be broken down, it’s proved to already be broken and flawed. It’s not pretty yet eventually balance will be restored. As a psychic channel, I saw all of this 4 yrs ago when this stooge took office. I can see straight through him (I’m born & raised in NJ, just 10 mins outside NYC therefore I know 1st hand his destructive ways) The people will choose and hopefully learn. That’s all I can pray for. Our energy is better used in the loving vibration
        ❤❤❤ In the end, that always wins😊

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  4. The anchor of religion is such a powerful aspect for an individual

    Tapping into it is a means to love and understanding

    Casting a shadow of fear over its loss is a tool used to mobilise people to negotiate power structures in society

    As more people deepen their understanding of faith, they will recognise that it is the last unbroken element that will endure on this earth

    In the absence of fear, it can serve as a great unifier

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    1. Ananda: your words are beautiful, like a psalm of hope and praise. Your words make me think of the Psalms of Ascent that the Hebrews would recite on their way to celebrate spiritual feasts together. Thank you, there is much hope in your “psalm” and the imagery is gorgeous and deep. Shalom, Jane

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