The Game

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The Game

By Jane Tawel

October 22, 2026

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The World has always

been full of grifters.

To con ourselves is the first step

We take towards “adulthood”.

The second is to con others,

Playing the game

to convince them we are

the roles we play.

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Our natural tendency and desire

to win by luck

or place of birth

or beliefs in passing knowledge

of how to game the System — 

writ large on decaying papyrus — 

these things we tell ourselves

are what we have learned

what we have earned

by whom and what we are.

And the Question of what it all means

dies with the Quest of the More.

And we no longer play games

like children do — curious, free, delighted — 

But like con artists who play to win

At any cost

At any loss

of self, or soul, or Awe.

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Playing the short-con,

is the uniquely human achievement.

And on days the die lands on red,

We smile thinking we have won.

And on days the die lands on black,

We turn away — 

Angry, afraid, jealous of the gods

who we believe

have stacked the decks against us.

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Preferring to think our lives

will never bankrupt our souls

we find a new table to play at

to eat at

to rattle the cup

that contains the pips we call

“Reality”.

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We live in the uncertainty

of why we never seem to win

that which we think we most value.

And we tell ourselves that even

when the Game Room of Life

closes and all our chips

must be turned in (like it or not),

we hope and pray

there will be more games to play

in some new casino we call Heaven,

a future myth we have gambled on

while only temporarily here

playing Blackjack with our souls.

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So few of us have found the Truth and lived it.

Fewer still have listened and followed.

There was a man from Galilee

and one from Quren village

who entered all the holy gambling places

and with the mighty swords of Words alone,

turned over the gambling tables

and walked out Whole and Free.

And both said humbly, “All you must do,

Is simply follow Me.”

And the gaming table

was refashioned into a Communion Table

where all know “they have plenty and are rich”*.

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This life is not a game

and we are not the players

but the played.

We have inherited

a Sacred Trust –

to squander it, is to die.

To invest it in our Holy Being,

will resurrect the soul to Eternity Now.

One can not gamble with Presence:

it simply Is.

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“Oh, Human, what are you — 

that God has you in Mind?

God, why do you visit us

and care?”**

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We do not know or understand.

But do we really have to?

Can we not walk away

from the games we play

the unrealities we create?

And stand in awe and mystery — 

Amazed? Awake? Alive?

The Whole World is within us — 

A Kingdom of God

And nothing is a gamble

And nothing is lacking

And there is nothing to fear.

Be Still.

Trust.

I AM.

No games to stop at.

Just Flow.

Beyond luck.

Beyond entitlement.

Beyond fear of loss.

Beyond death.

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“They that place their bets

upon The Good-Love

shall be made whole and free forever.”***

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For God has always played

the Long Con.

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© Jane Tawel, 2026

*Lao Tzu Proverb

** Psalm 8:4

*** Isaiah 40:31

The Truth Is in the Spaces

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The Truth Is in the Spaces

By Jane Tawel

July 24, 2026

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Words are signposts only,

along the Narrow Way.

If you rush from point to point,

word to word,

you will never reach

the destination,

the place that you call “The Truth”.

Words will keep you traveling, traveling, traveling;

Anxious to find the right signs, or

Arguing with your copilots

Certain in your certainty,

that only you know best,

that your way is the Only!! route,

the single road to Happiness, to Heaven, or to Holiness;

And never knowing deeply, truly,

that there are many trued and true paths

leading Home.

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Words, especially those on ancient maps,

can also keep you stuck,

content to stay within your deepening rut.

Eventually you can dig yourself

so far down and down and down

you barely have a finger to raise above your ditch,

a small and useless pointer at the stars which you can’t see,

down there in the dark and dank, determined ditch you’ve dug.

Or perhaps you raise an angry, upright digit

raised in indignation, raised against

the perceived enemies out there,

a digit wiggling out and up,

a solitary soldier in the slumbering stand you take

against awakening

and climbing up and out into

the fresh air of the Open Road.

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For a long time, inviting others

to join you in your rut

can make you feel safe.

Until the floods come.

Your muscles that once could have found The Way,

Out into the Open Air, free in the Wide and Open Spaces,

are too weak by now, atrophied by the fears of your Unknowing.

You have languished long, far from the Road,

feeling secure in the tight confines of your pit,

Unable to pull yourself out of the rut of

your necessary belief that somehow, stuck down there,

you will eventually rise to Something, Somewhere Else.

But a pit leads no-where, my friend.

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And in the hidey- hole that you’ve dug,

you never see the many ropes

that others have thrown down

to let you pull yourself out from

the ditch that you have dug around yourself.

So many lovely, lovely things,

have through the eons

of this lovely, lovely World’s circuitous

spiraling, mysteriously moving expedition,

thrown out life-lines,

shown, not spoken,

and pointed to all the Truth we ever need to know,

to Trust that only Love can lead The Way.

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Nature has the truest Trueline.

Her roots have been threaded by Eternity,

threaded into thick, strong cords,

leading in and out, and down and up,

The Way of Our Salvation.

The World is full of Glory

to save us from drowning

in idolatry of texts,

from continually bashing ourselves

upon the rocky walls we make

out of our own silly and inflated egos.

Nature has never built a wall.

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When the Flood comes,

and finds you in your high-walled ditch,

Words won’t help you float.

You need something with air in it for that,

Something that breathes,

Something buoyant like a raft.

Cast aside your useless euphemisms,

your cries and yells and sermons,

your documents and equations

none of these can save you.

You can only release yourself to The Flow.

Let go

and float

and let The River lift you up and out,

out from in your trenches,

out from your revenges and your fears,

and let The Water take you,

clean you and restore you,

back from chosen Death to freely given Life.

Trust the Flow.

All Rivers flow to The Source.

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Truth is not a map

that anybody owns.

The Way is the play between,

the give and take

and push and shove

and gentle flow of

of letting go;

the looking up and out

and gazing long

at what is not there to be seen

but that which opens us.

And when we do not know

then we know

it is not our seeing that matters,

because we sense

we, at last, are Seen.

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Don’t throw away your maps,

but rest assured,

while Compasses are often useful things,

True Truth is only in the gaps.

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Truth is in the spaces –

The small bits and gentle pauses

The breaths between the hub-bub

and the clean-rooms that scour out

the hubris of our “feeling”

that we are right and they are wrong.

Peace is only found in the spaces

between the small stones in your shoes,

only in the vast open-places

glimpsed only

out of the corner of your eyes,

perhaps magnified into

kaleidoscopic wonder

by tears of sorrow or

tears of aching Awe.

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I wish they had used better punctuation

in the things that Jesus said.

There needs to be a lot of Space — 

 — Between — 

between the Truths that only Love can know.

I add a lot of dashes — 

Between the words of Christ.

I AM — 

The Way — 

The Truth — 

The Life — 

Seek — 

and you will find.

Love — 

Love — 

Love.

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Yes — let me live and move and

Find my being

in the Dashes — 

of

I Am-ness — 

And Your IAm.

of

my seeking — 

and Your finding.

of

my longing — 

and the only thing that fills that longing — 

Love.

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The Spirit People do not hand us maps — 

We make those up ourselves.

And while a map can be a useful thing,

we shouldn’t mistake it for The Way.

Look for the crevices and cracks –

There is a crack in everything,

That’s how the Light gets in.*

Look up from your maps,

And follow The Light.

There is a Light in The Window,

and The Light of The World

will lead us Home.

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© Jane Tawel, 2026

*by Leonard Cohen, “Anthem”

The First Steps and The Last

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The First Steps and The Last

By Jane Tawel

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The first steps are the hardest;

I really don’t want to run this race.

My breath struggles at the start

and every aspiration

becomes the hardest to catch.

The last mile that I run

(and this is all by choice, mind you)

is pretty darn hard too –

Maybe I could just walk it?

Or crawl?

Or quit?

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I wonder if the last lap of this race

I’ve called my Life,

will be as hard for me

as my first lap?

Birthed into struggle

from the womb of the bed I’ve made,

will I run well the race towards Death?

Or will my passing on The Path

be the painful struggle

the agonizing effort to breathe

a battle waged as all the last steps

of the last journey I make towards Home?

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Or will Life’s Finish Line instead

be the first lap

of the next journey which

will no longer be any kind of race at all.

Will that final step

always be a breathing into

a beginning — 

effortless, weightless, sweat-less-

cleaned from the placenta of Death

into the Quest beyond questions,

Stilled and Resting, Peaceful, Floating

Reborn, restarted, re-breathed,

Dancing forward

into New Life?

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© Jane Tawel, 2026

Create a Space

by Jane Tawel

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Create a Space

By Jane Tawel

Juneteenth (June 19, 2023)

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Take today,

just this moment, in fact, is all you need.

Take this moment

to create a new and empty space inside of you.

Do not fill it with all the crowding thoughts.

Leave a space that is bare

and tidy of all thought of things.

Create a space,

as naked as a baby ready to be cleansed,

naked of all your emotions.

Become unadorned.

Divest your very soul

of anything you think of as yourself.

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Create an open space,

and leave it empty.

Leave a space that is free and open

to whatever Love may choose to fill it with.

And with Love within,

even within a very small, but clean and empty space,

you will find you are full-filled.

© Jane Tawel, 2023